It's not enough to have your dreams in front of you- it's not enough to have people look up to you and think that you're so great. It's just not good enough. The world holds promise for those that choose to take hold of it. I can't do it- I can't go to college. It's just... I'm no longer excited about it- I don't want to go- I'm.... afraid. I don't have Raegan there to help me laugh through my problems, Kristen won't be there to smile when the times are hard, Rachael won't be there to say " press on" when I slack off, Kenny won't be there to encourage me to follow my dreams, David Foxwell won't be there to lighten the atmosphere, Dave Owens won't be there for me to laugh at everytime he tries to get together with the wrong girl, and Joel- he will be there, but honestly, I doubt he'll talk to me. It's like... I don't know- anguish- my "2nd" family is split apart- I don't know where to turn now. It's like the people I love are all gone and I'm alone- God is here ,yes, but what about all my friends? I don't want to go to college. i want to be with my friends. My birthday is in 7 days, I'll be 18 years old- and I seriously don't know what I want to do with my life. Music Ed? I don't even think I want to do that anymore- I don't know what to do.